Somewhere in the back of my mind, I’ve always thought that if I work hard, strive to remove the negative, have a positive mindset and do good things that eventually life will be perfect. Life is not going to fit my model of perfect. It is impossible. Life is life and life happens! It’s the way we interpret the complications and our mindset that determine if we swim or if we sink!
I think a lot has to do with our personality and the input we have received from childhood into adulthood.
This has been a tough week for me. Midweek I struggled with the negative. At one point, while lying in bed, I felt my anxiety taking over. I was overwhelmed and there was nothing I could mentally do about any of them; but, I continued to jump from one to the other at mach speed until I was overcome…absolutely overwhelmed. Then a moment of clarity….STOP. This is what you always do. Stop and center yourself. For 2 minutes just breath in and out….focus on nothing else but your breathing. It’s not easy and I wasn’t completely successful or was I. The thoughts kept fighting to get in. But I felt my jaw relax….and I knew that it wasn’t going to be perfect but this was working. Right at this moment it is working. This did not take the multiple problems away but I knew it was going to work for me right at that moment…..and right now at this moment is all I have.
Until next time…..