I was in the backyard when it started and by the time I got to the front of the house

The sun was out….but a tease of some very large drops!

I’ve been in a slump the last few days….not really a mental slump because I’m doing what I want to do but a physical slump…I marked 1,115 steps on my Fitbit yesterday…I don’t feel good about it; yet, I’m torn because I’m enjoying my time on the Davenport either reading or with my headphones on watching something British from Netflix or Amazon Prime.  Which brings me to the book Fathermothergod ….. A non fiction book written by Lucia Greenhouse about her growing up in the Church of Christ,Scientist religion, her rebellion and the impact of the religion for her siblings and the household.  I couldn’t put it down.  

I’m not a romance novel reader (not that there is anything wrong with them…I know the high faluten self described intellectuals look down on romance novel readers) pfft.  I like unpredictable and different…for the most part, I really dislike Hollywood movies  and consider my self a high faluten movie intellectual because of it. *raising nose upward.  I also abhor violence.  I don’t want to watch raw sex on TV but give me sex before violence any day!

After nearly 2 1/2 years of retirement, I still have feelings of guilt letting myself just do what I want to do.  It is harder than I thought to go from a 90mph life to barely registering on the speedometer.  That’s what I’m working on now…giving myself permission to do what I want to do without my inner voice criticizing my actions….it’s a different way of thinking.  I wish I had slowed down years ago so the abrupt change wouldn’t feel so wrong!

It’s clouding over and getting dark again….let it rain!!!

Until next time…..