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These are the times when I have so much trouble getting back to the trail and finding the steps I need to take to get back to peaceful mental health.   Yesterday was a miserable day for me.  Not in the big picture kind of angst but I just felt there was some kind of… Read more

I dreamed that I noticed we were acquiring a lot of kitties and was surprised that I hadn’t had my cats neutered and the next thing you know, under a pine tree are multiple small human baby  girls who are all crying and he is leaning over them frantically trying to change their diapers.  That’s… Read more

I’m pretty deep in thought today.  I’ve found myself thinking a lot about life in the last week and a half.  he was up a good part of the night because he had too many naps yesterday, consequently he’s been in bed most of the morning which gives me a lot of quiet time to… Read more

My mood dropped to the tearful phase after I read the Care Page of an old friend yesterday.  Dorena has fought the good fight…after several chemo sessions and a bone marrow transplant, leukemia has taken over and she is spending her last weeks with her husband, kids and grandkids and mom.  She and her husband… Read more

   Apparently, I traumatized the girls at Christmas time by placing this little girl on the top of our Christmas tree…..for many, many years.  It freaked them out for some reason???  I found it while going through Christmas ornaments today and laughed out loud. ❤️❤️👼🏼👼🏼 Read more

He slept on the recliner/couch last night and woke up later than he had been waking up with no pain Med supplement in the middle of the night!  He’s also coughing instead of just clearing his throat which is a good thing.  Lots of anesthesia/heart-lung/intubation gook to get out which will help his oxygen saturation.… Read more

   I spent this amazing day playing Christmas music from KCMO through my headphones.  I watched the public television documentary on Richard and Karen Carpenter….they played a couple of their Christmas duets and I was hooked on Christmas music.  I sat out on the deck to enjoy the breeze and cleaned the kitchen.  I had… Read more

I’ll post quite an impressive picture of the scar at the bottom of the blog so that you will continue reading if you are squeamish.  I post it for the curious who have never seen a chest incision and also as a testament to what the human body can endure and recover. I am so… Read more

I’m overwhelmed and should probably make a list (I don’t make lists)  about all of the things he won’t be doing around the house.  I have to pick up the slack.  This is not a woe is me I’m going to be so overburdened.  This is a gratitude feeling deep down inside.  I’m thankful that… Read more

But realized I’m not that person anymore!  The holiday season is my magical season, but it is also seems to be the season that has slowly been shredded for me….shredded because of sadness…..at least sporadically over the last couple decades. My dad had a stroke around Thanksgiving one year and a heart attack on Christmas… Read more