July 2009

I just sat down in the chair and obviously not busy because I immediately went to XANGA.  I think I left off Saturday night with the racing…We got the bathroom painted.  I love the color…Kelsey Island green..I will post pics later…He once again did all of the trim work and didn’t even have to tape the Read more

  I’m home drinking a glass of cheap wine and eating spinzels braided butter flavored pretzels that I bought at Menards tonight.  The weekend has been fun.  Last night, I went to dinner with Deb and Jeff.  Glad the 3 of us were finally able to get together.  No scrapbooking but we went to Deb’s Read more

It’s Friday…it really is…I’m going to have a good paycheck this time…Now that it is over, it was worth it.Meeting Jeff and Debbie in Pleasant Hill for dinner tonight….don’t know what we will do after dinner…I’m going to take my scrapbooking stuff just in case.I’m off to bed to start a new book…finished My Sister’s Read more

Another night, another $1.50…my most used Nina-quote…actually, I think I started saying it when I worked for the son of the devil, egotistical, mean, arrogant ass who didn’t give a damn about anyone….Whew..had not thought of him for many years…he’s permanently sleeping underground now.Made some progress today.  I emailed Julie, who is the person I Read more

One day at a time…I may be getting my edge back after ruminating for the last couple of days.  I seriously feel different…almost like I got a little spunk and fight back in me.    Thanks for enduring some Debbie Downer moments here at Ninasusan.Until next time…. Read more

I have a friend of many years that doesn’t approve of me, has manipulated all of those around us with her self defeating attitude.  I spent a good many hours of our friendship trying to make her okay and telling her that all of those self-defeating comments were just not true…it was never a “let Read more

Sometimes I am soooo tired of being responsible, being self disciplined, not saying what I really think at times when it doesn’t seem appropriate.  I’m 53…perhaps my perception of what happens when you kick the chicks out of the nest are crazy.  Does there come a time when you have permission to do what you Read more

::yawn::Everytime I do this long hours and screwy shift stuff, I say I’m not going to do it again, EVER…It’s 4:15 in the morning and I have just a few hours left so I’m almost afraid to say this but it has not been bad working…I’m just needing some sun and some other scenery.I”m numb.  Read more

Another day shift…and sitting at a different console…it’s like a new job and yet, it isn’t.Cleaned out file cabinets …..  Our vehicle insurance has gone up $100 since last year.I have calendars from every year since 1981.  This will make for some good reminiscing for later…or the regurgitation of lots of angst.  I guess just Read more

He has obviously given up on trying to tell me what to do…even for my own good.  I can remember a time, not that long ago, that he would have said…well, put some shoes on.I’m suffering today from 3 or 4 puncture wounds in my feet from rusty carpet pad staples.  I think back and Read more