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Made my way into my mind’s rational room where all the figurines are placed in their appropriate place….all in a week where the skies are gloomy and the temps below average. Every morning, I tried to think of the day’s gloomy weather like wearing an oversized t shirt with my old Walmart sweatpants. Comfortable, safe… Read more
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I remember when my girls were in preschool….Lollipop Lane…Grandparents were invited around Thanksgiving for a special day. My girls were lucky to live in the same town as both sets of grandparents so were accompanied by Gmas and Gpas Brown and Green. After these pre-Thanksgiving events, the girls would come home with Reindeer made out… Read more
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The brother-in-law and the bestie came for a visit Friday night and Saturday. Obviously ordered by the mental health angels. We began our trip to Bennett Spring feeling loved and centered! As happens every time we drive down into the park my heart sang with old memories of happiness and making new memories with him.… Read more
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Or not my first rodeo but today ….. put it in Perspective. I have had a headache for a little over a month. I’ve been on two rounds of antibiotics, 5 days of prednisone and now on steroidal eye drops. I’m better today….it’s just a vague headache but I’m really out of sorts and it… Read more
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Free will to make decisions, yes…actually being in control….no, not really. I am a recovering control freak! I’ve spent many years making firm decisions, manipulating situations and other people so that things could or would be done “correctly”. There are few people that I willingly allowed dominance over me and usually this was accomplished by… Read more
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While on my meditative walk tonight, I realized that occasionally ….like tonight….I feel like I’m wearing some type of invisible armor. It’s not like I physically don this armor or perhaps more like bubble wrap…it’s just there. I feel safe, I like being with me. I have 10 years of ninasusan blogs and many pages… Read more
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I exceeded my Fitbit step goal today….and made my stairs goal. First time in a very long time. I have gone through periods in my life that I felt compelled to walk…before fitbit or the other convenient electronics…I had to plan out my route by driving the route to figure out what kind of mileage… Read more
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My blog…my story….my opinions. I had my fill of dominant, aggressive, insecure men today……and the soft spoken preacher-like man who invaded my space to point to my heart and asked me if I could feel my heart beating…that was God speaking directly to me that he is connected on and on and on. The… Read more
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How many thoughts, beliefs habits do we learn from our parents without even realizing it. In those 18 years of breathing the same air as those who gave birth to us, we learn values, beliefs and habits. Sometimes as adults, we realize the error of those ways or, unfortunately, we may just continue to do… Read more
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