I put one foot in front of the other

Made my way into my mind’s rational room where all the figurines are placed in their appropriate place….all in a week where the skies are gloomy and the temps below average.  Every morning, I tried to think of the day’s gloomy weather like wearing an oversized t shirt with my old Walmart sweatpants.  Comfortable, safe and familiar as opposed to having to push myself out the door into warmth and sunshine wearing jeans, boots and a noticeable red shirt!

I’m approaching 9 months of being medication free.  I’ve learned that I no longer have the option of pharm to put me in a stupor in order to not feel anything….I must recognize the signs that anxiety is creeping in day to day or actually just event to event.  Perhaps I’m a slow learner or more likely I just don’t have the discipline yet to work the skills I’ve learned to ease the symptoms when they first appear?

This night time irrational anxiety is a bitch!  but this week, I grabbed it with all of my strength and won again.  Practice makes perfect, right?

Until next time…..

6 thoughts on “I put one foot in front of the other

  1. Kudos! Well done! The night time crazys are the worst! Practice makes perfect!

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  2. It’s amazing how much you chosen to take on to get yourself into the space you want to be in.
    You are a tough tough woman!

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  3. Some people get addicted to alcohol and/or drugs, and some use denial. The courageous (and rare) thing is to deal honestly with one’s feelings stone cold sober. You’re doing it.

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  4. ❤ i didn't realize i had anxiety (which was obvious to everyone else when i entered kindergarten & couldn't stop vomiting) until i was in my late 30s…but slowly i have learned to recognize it and talk myself down…sometimes i am successful…good luck! you are not alone!

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