life
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I woke up peacefully this morning. I slept with the drapes over the open deck door wide open last night and the view overwhelmed me with contentment……I allowed myself the luxury of laying in bed drifting in and out of light dozing and soaking in the love and friendship of the girls weekend in Des… Read more
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Are we just harming ourselves? I’m not sure yet if I believe in the karma theory but I know in the past from my mental flapping, I’ve entertained lots of negative hopes for those who have been on the other side of my personal battle line. It is starting to sink in that you are… Read more
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But currently I’m working through it. I don’t have understanding right now. This is why I journal…both privately and publically on ninasusan.com…For the most part, my private journaling is paragraph after paragraph of thoughts that either would not make sense to anyone else or would, quite frankly, piss them off….it may be a book someday.… Read more
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19 to 59 years old, I really could not be stopped! I look back at those years now and wonder who that person was..59 was just two years ago. Seems the moment I walked into my first job for an insurance company roughly 40 years ago this month, I began my 40 year energizer… Read more
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Closer to September 1st than August 1st so for some reason every night I set myself up thinking I’m going to step out the front door and it is going to feel like the 72 degrees that my watch reports…not 72 degrees with 94% humidity…..and every night between 11P and 2A, I say to myself…UGH… Read more
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Feeling vulnerable is a natural emotion. I believe whether we have the tenacity to fight this emotion or wear it on our sleeve, we all have differing triggers and degrees of vulnerabilities….I’m not sure if this feeling of being susceptible to being wounded or hurt, open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc. ever goes away.… Read more
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Some people are just angry….and we encounter them everyday. Some people wouldn’t show anger if you set their hair on fire…..they would forgive you….or so it seems. Some people, which I believe are the majority fall right in the center…these people are forgiving but given the correct amount of flame can explode…even to the point… Read more
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I was sharing some on-line information with him today (a texting thread with a family member along with You Tube videos). I know why the subject matter had me emotional…it was the mixture of things that are close to my heart, the realization of the depth of my love and the empathy touched with the… Read more
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I will tell you about my trip to the ER. The high points less than 12 hours after the event: Anti depressant withdrawal…introducing 10 mg of citalapram into my system to ease the cymbalta withdrawal. A liquid only diet for 3 days to treat diverticulitis. Introducing one 500 mg of the antibiotic Cipro Introducing various… Read more
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Reference yesterday’s entry..thanks for the comments you left..isn’t it wierd that most of us have never met face to face but we are xanga friends and still get to know each other. I think it is because we get our feelings out and most of us are girls in different levels of emotional health but… Read more
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