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This blog has been taking up space in my head for 4 days now. I’ve been off antidepressants for 6 months and now 4 days. I no longer feel drugged. I’m able to function in the real world like everyone else. Now when I look back at those 2 weeks of Hell going cold… Read more
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19 to 59 years old, I really could not be stopped! I look back at those years now and wonder who that person was..59 was just two years ago. Seems the moment I walked into my first job for an insurance company roughly 40 years ago this month, I began my 40 year energizer… Read more
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Closer to September 1st than August 1st so for some reason every night I set myself up thinking I’m going to step out the front door and it is going to feel like the 72 degrees that my watch reports…not 72 degrees with 94% humidity…..and every night between 11P and 2A, I say to myself…UGH… Read more
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Death of a parent can really screw with your life. For anyone who has had a wonderful, deep, loving relationship with a parent that has died, I know the pain is so great that you really wonder if you will survive. The immediate overwhelming grief is incompacitating. Sometimes after a parent has passed, intellectually we… Read more
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Sometimes impromptu gatherings are the best. There’s no time to plan and/or anticipate what you might have forgotten to do. Brother and sister in law came for a visit from Des Moines. It had been a couple months since we had seen each other in person…it never feels like it starting with the first hugs.… Read more
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Or more to the point ….. I question the placement of light switches….or even more to the point…I actually question muscle -memory or, in this case, memory-memory. Just as a precursor, I have very limited spatial skills. This is not new. I’ve always had an issue with right or left…something that is just instinct for… Read more
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Feeling vulnerable is a natural emotion. I believe whether we have the tenacity to fight this emotion or wear it on our sleeve, we all have differing triggers and degrees of vulnerabilities….I’m not sure if this feeling of being susceptible to being wounded or hurt, open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc. ever goes away.… Read more
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Some people are just angry….and we encounter them everyday. Some people wouldn’t show anger if you set their hair on fire…..they would forgive you….or so it seems. Some people, which I believe are the majority fall right in the center…these people are forgiving but given the correct amount of flame can explode…even to the point… Read more
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On my trip to Des Moines on Tuesday, I was in a really strange place. My spirit felt free yet I was letting fear seep in about the upcoming chest X-ray. I always listen to my music playlist when I’m in the car alone so I decided to crank it up and and fly. THIS… Read more
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When I was attending college in Joplin and actually even before that….when the youth group made visits to Ozark Bible College, just over the Iowa State line is Bethany, Missouri and always seemed to be a stopping point. They used to have an awesome Ice Cream shop there with multiple flavors….before Baskin Robbins! Probably because… Read more
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