April 2017

I’m a couple days over 2 months being anti depressant free.  It’s been interesting and a learning experience these last couple of months.  I find myself with feelings and emotions I haven’t felt in many years.  I’m having a difficult time expressing what I’m really feeling…unless I’m happy and laughing, I know I’m shutting down. Read more

My daughter told me straight out the other night that we are going to have a talk about my inability to recognize people who are wearing signs that say toxic!  Over the years, I’ve given a lot of people the benefit of the doubt and been bitten!  I’ve tried to figure out what causes me Read more

Mentally I’m finding myself in a different place.  I’ve not been one of those people who has REALLY been bothered by my age.  Every Birthday since probably 45, I’ve thought I can’t believe I’m fill in the blank  years old….and then I move on.  Until I turned   60.  (And that was before my birthday Read more

I have a part time job…I started it on Tuesday.  It is very part time…max of 15 hours a week.  I’m working at a salon/spa…doing reception, cleaning, laundry and tanning beds.  Compared to working 911 for 30 years, it is like mentally taking a nap.  Physically?  I spent two days off trying to recover from Read more

After dad died in 01 and mom in 09, I figured out that I am going to have a good Christmas cry close to the holiday…I never really know when it is coming….it is just triggered.  At first I would have a weepy day…all day…but then figured out that if I just give into it Read more

My friends are like a variety pack of snack chips.  They come in all sizes, age, ethnicity, gay, straight, conservative, liberal, atheist, spiritual and  “religious” and gender.  The friends that make up my short list…will call them the besties…for the most part, have similar beliefs that I do.  I think it would be safe to Read more