Ninasusan

Happiness gently landed on my shoulders

kidney cancer

  • A day past two weeks…

    I’ve read everything I could get my hands on in order to adequately prepare for my nephrectomy recovery.  4 weeks seems to be the magic number for returning to work.  Exhaustion and muscle pain are often mentioned…but I swear i didn’t  think it would happen that way with me… low and behold…here I am.  Also Read more

  • narcotics, marijuana and mind your own business

    I’m not a drinker of the bubbly.  I don’t see the purpose. 1) I do not like to NOT be in control of me. 2) If I’m going to drink something, it is going to taste good.  Personal preference.  I am going to put it out there that I believe without question that alcohol consumption is Read more

  • Who knew this would creep up on me….

    Today I’m easily irritated.  Not feeling overly great…Just below mid-sternum I have a muscle that causes me great pain when I do some things.  I have no idea what those some things are going to be.  And if I continue doing those things for 1/2 second I get a pulling, tearing type pain that pisses Read more

  • If only we were all the same so we would know what to expect?

    I remember the exact feeling I had when I heard the words…and we found an 8cm mass on your left kidney which we believe is malignant.  He and Jenny were in the room but I was sitting cross legged on the exam table and I saw and I heard white noise.  I’m not sure if my Read more

  • Total Reality Check…and not a pretty picture included in this post…..

    I’m a member of a kidney cancer survivor group on Facebook.  It is a very supportive, non dramatic place to connect, ask questions and feel not totally alone in your disease.  Between the group and what I learned about living with cancer from my friend, Tracy, I decided to go ahead and put my recent kidney Read more

  • ….and now there are two

    Before I share my Alfred Hitchcock fear, I must share this picture of Katy and Adam.  Riding horses on her birthday.  She is so darn cute! So…yesterday…the cats set up guard on the dining room table….a baby bluejay found his wings and made it over to the back of the front porch rocker. Mama or Read more

  • The breakfast of champions….

    https://welcometodementialand.wordpress.com/ I have shared a couple of these blogs on my page recently.  Actually I can’t remember now how I found her wordpress page…she has a wonderful take on dementia and alzheimers and should be a regular read for anyone who is living with someone with the disease.  I have a 6 degrees of separation Read more

  • Having a reading nest….

       Laying in bed this morning, listening to the morning floor creaks and his morning habits, I felt the need to delve into why he likes to wake up and immediately have both feet on the floor; and how I like to lay there and move my legs around the disheveled sheets searching for a Read more

  • That slo-mo time between diagnosis and surgery..

    I’m not exactly sure where I’ve drawn from to make it between March 9 to June 9….kidney cancer diagnosis day to scheduled surgery day.  I’ve had two “on the ledge” days where I had to lean on someone else to make it through the agonizing fear and the sobs….and I will say the extra special Read more

  • It probably not kidney cancer that will get me….

    I was sitting “indian” style on the exam table in the ER on my 59th birthday when the doc told me that I have a large tumor on my left kidney and it is most likely malignant…but first we need to get this diverticulitis abscess taken care of.  He and Jenny were in the room with Read more