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I use “up note” because I think it pretty much describes my mom as she is ending her life here.  “Up Note” because at the end of the song, you know there is that little question mark.  I feel very sad because I feel I finally received what I needed from my mother last night…I… Read more

After 24 hours of sleep, I’m up…I’m feeling better…better is relative.I called the hospital this morning to see if Helen had gotten any more pleasant.  She refused the ct scan of her abdomen to diagnose her chronic diarhea that she has been complaining about for 2 weeks and what caused her to go to the… Read more

I’m up for a few minutes this morning…actually got out of bed because my throat is tender and I wanted to take a pm med so I can sleep…my days off have been sleep deprived….I’ve slept during every time period over the 3 days but can only sleep for 5 or 6 hours…not like me.… Read more

Helen went back to Des Moines to live with her sister…Oh Happy Day!!!!  Yippee…woo hoo…Hallelujuah…diet cokes for the world..I’m buying…. Read more

Tired of being the stable rock…have quite a few past regrets…found it remarkable in a recent facebook get-to-know you test, nearly all of my friends answered yes when asked…would you want to go back in the future.  NO, Holy mother of God, NO.  No if it would be the same as it is now….if I… Read more

Just suppose for a second that you are 91 years old and that you have a sibling that is 93…this sibling is your only sibling..this sibling you used to defend when you had a famly at home over and above the husband or only child.  This 93 year old sister left her home, friends and… Read more

I spent my day off with Debbie today…which was actually yesterday.  It was scheduled as our monthly scrapbooking but Karen couldn’t make it so it was just the two of us.  Her birthday was last week – we celebrated today..she decorated our playroom and ordered salads from Applebees and had hor’derves with an island taste… Read more

Do you ever meet someone and immediately don’t like them?  Vibes, arrogance, what comes out of the mouth….I question motives, I hear things..I question the arrogance or just ignorance..I don’t need to be nice, just professional…sometimes professional is tough…I let them get to me..it’s me.  When this has happened in the past, I’ve been forced… Read more

One thing that I didn’t realize when I was young, was the cycles one goes thru in their life.  I speak solely of myself here but I find in general, just from listening to conversation, that this may be universal with the difference being the individual changes of cycles.  Most recently, I find myself feeling… Read more