I’ve been trying to blog for several days…in fact right now I’m trying to figure out how to put words together. I feel I need to get it out of my head so I can shut it down and reel in my anxiety.
Nothing bad has happened….life has happened….but the complication of being an empath has fueled the fires of hell in my mind. I know, intellectually, what I need to do to get a grip but I am going to have to handcuff the part of my brain that does not allow me to avoid so I can to actually accomplish it.
Without going into any detail…suffice to say that when all of a sudden those connected to you start having minor health and common mentally challenging events, I, as an empath, take on those emotions…I can’t explain it, I just feel it. If you are an empath, you totally understand, if you are not an empath, just read along.
When several minor things happen to those around you, it can be completely overwhelming and if you just go with the flow and fail to arm yourself from these growing life events, eventually the nasty overwhelming feelings take over your peace of mind. For me, that is where destructive anxiety takes over. Anxiety for me is the inability to have calm, inability to think rationally. Many times when the sun goes down, my fear and morbid thoughts rage and I’m stuck with heart racing, irrational fear of anything that could possibly happen.
I know this. I have experienced it too many times in my life not to understand it. I get complacent, I don’t use the skills I’ve learned to deal with it in the beginning. I must back away from everyone’s energy. I must fine my peace in solitude
Until next time……