Ninasusan

Happiness gently landed on my shoulders

anxiety

  • I put one foot in front of the other

    Made my way into my mind’s rational room where all the figurines are placed in their appropriate place….all in a week where the skies are gloomy and the temps below average.  Every morning, I tried to think of the day’s gloomy weather like wearing an oversized t shirt with my old Walmart sweatpants.  Comfortable, safe Read more

  • When the anxiety horn blows

    I’ve been trying to blog for several days…in fact right now I’m trying to figure out how to put words together.  I feel I need to get it out of my head so I can shut it down and reel in my anxiety. Nothing bad has happened….life has happened….but the complication of being an empath Read more

  • Not my first goat rope

    Or not my first rodeo but today ….. put it in Perspective. I have had a headache for a little over a month.  I’ve been on two rounds of antibiotics, 5 days of prednisone and now on steroidal eye drops.  I’m better today….it’s just a vague headache but I’m really out of sorts and it Read more

  • Control is an illusion….

    Free will to make decisions, yes…actually being in control….no, not really. I am a recovering control freak!  I’ve spent many years making firm decisions, manipulating situations and other people so that things could or would be done “correctly”.  There are few people that I willingly allowed dominance over me and usually this was accomplished by Read more

  • Developing invisible armor

    While on my meditative walk tonight, I realized that occasionally ….like tonight….I feel like I’m wearing some type of invisible armor.  It’s not like I physically don this armor or perhaps more like bubble wrap…it’s just there.  I feel safe, I like being with me. I have 10 years of ninasusan blogs and many pages Read more

  • I feel like I got an A on a mid term paper

    He and the neighbors had a little mishap on the lake today with the small sailboat we recently sold them.  Actually a couple mishaps…everyone is fine physically.  Suffice to say we put peroxide in his ears tonight in an attempt to kill bacteria from the lake water.    I had the boys today and Jaxon Read more

  • Nina Susan I didn’t actually really know my name

    I found out tonight that my name is Nina Susan.  I checked my birth certificate.  It is nice to know what my name is.  As the story is told, I’m named after my two grandmothers.  Maternal side Nina with the long i..mine is Nina pronounced Neena and the Sue from my paternal grandmother.  I actually knew Read more