Sometimes I am not careful when I hold my sign….there are two sides….one is blank. When I hold that blank sign up it means…whatever…I’m not terribly concerned about what you think of me and chances are your opinion and/or your opinion of me really has no impact on me during the time you are breathing the same air I am.
Sometimes I hold the other side of the sign up….it says vulnerable…what you say to me can crush me or lift me up in a split second. I care about you and I care about anything you say whether I agree with it or not. Unintended words or tone of voice can send me into myself to re evaluate something I might have said or can make me feel euphoric.
On the days I leave my sign at home….I’m feeling confident….it’s pretty difficult to knock a chip off my block….you may recognize this person as laughing, listening and loving….with Nina-isms rolling out of my mouth faster than I can control them.
But one thing you can count on whether I’m carrying my sign or not I will treat you with respect….let me back up…I can probably count on one hand the times I’ve cleared my senses and spewed a little hatred to someone who desperately asked for it. But, really, there’s a part of me that isnt proud of my self control!
you may be wondering who pissed HER off today…I can only respond that I Had my sign with me.
Until next time…..