I failed yesterday….

…and that is a part of being human.   I went out about as far as my tether would reach yesterday in delight about someone’s misfortune.  I wish I could say that I reeled myself back in with admonishments during some quiet time last night but, quite frankly, I still feel the same way today.  This “event” was like a karma thing – “they’ll get theirs someday”. I doubt I will be able to self talk my way out of my feelings.  But then I worry that this Karma thing could backfire on me and bring negativity into my core.  But for right now…I’m sticking to – I knew they would get theirs someday.

Which leads me right into the family dialogue…I know a lot of people will fall right into this and understand.  The holiday season starts tomorrow.  I, so, want to be peaceful and loving during this season.  The winter holidays are my time to feel magical and full of wonder.  I know that someone is going to say something to hurt my feelings or piss me off but I said in yesterday’s blog.

“What others think, what they look like, what they say, how they live their life is their journey. It has nothing to do with me. What is happening at this moment is what matters and how I perceive those moments is totally up to me.”

Now if I can just practice what I preach.

Until next time….

2 thoughts on “I failed yesterday….

  1. Do to others before they do to you…wait…that’s not right. Do to others as you would have them do to you.

    That can be hard.

    Thus saith the Lord, “Vengeance is mine. I will repay.”

    I just want to be about the Lord’s work. After all, people do not always get what they deserve.

    Wait. that’s wrong too. I do not want justice for myself. I want grace and mercy. Can I have it both ways. Hmmmm.

    I know…try this.

    “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”

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