I have a girlfriend who has been battling cancer for several years…

Tracy has always been very open with details of her cancer, her procedures, how she is trying to prepare her body for those procedures and staying strong and living life.  I’ve soaked in her details and thought that her writing about her life was probably as cathartic for her as it was for us, her friends, who thought about her struggle day and night.  The one thing I always wondered is…when you have this CANCER growing in you and you know it is there…how do you not think about it all of the time…how do you just accept that it is there and continue to put one foot in front of the other and be viable?

I now have kidney cancer that I wake up with everyday and go to sleep with everynight.  It is there!

What I think this has done for me has thickened my resolve and pissed me off….and I’ve never been one who just sits around and takes it when I’m pissed off!  Let me add here that my kidney cancer is probably all contained in my kidney and the doctor is pretty sure that they will snip it out and the cancer will be gone.  There is not Chemo or radiation that I”m aware of to treat kidney cancer.  More than one person has said to me that if I’m going to get cancer…this is the one to get.  It has also been suggested that having diverticulitis probably has saved my life – with the finding of the cancer early before it broke out of it’s lining.  So far…I think I’m lucky!

What I’ve become militant about it is what is going in my mouth.  I’ve eaten healthy for the last year – sans Thanksgiving, Christmas and vacation.  There is a difference in wanting to eat healthy because I”m almost 60 and don’t want to die early and wanting to eat healthy because I’m almost 60, have cancer, and don’t want to die early.  It’s all called perspective….

One of the things I’ve read about kidney cancer is there is really no known cause…but smoking cigarettes and being overweight may have a cause and effect.  CHECK!  Guilty of both…so I”m really not a victim unless I don’t change things…then I just have a death wish.

Until next time….

5 thoughts on “I have a girlfriend who has been battling cancer for several years…

  1. Hi Ninasusan. I am a kidney cancer survivor. I had 1/2 my right kidney removed in March 2011… I also used to be on Xanga and miss it. I had a blog at Blogger after but started a new one over here yesterday. I wonder if your friend Tracy is my friend Tracy from Xanga? She is such a fighter, and such a force to watch. Good luck with your surgery. It was my first time having surgery aside from having my tubes tied when I was 35. I was in the hospital for 5 days. Lois

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  2. Nina, I’m am so sorry to read about this. If you have blogged before about it, I must have missed it. I agree with all that you said and you have a GREAT attitude towards this situation. We will be keeping you in our thoughts and prayers and praying for a positive outcome and healing in the days to come. Blessings.


  3. Agreed!
    With so much out there in terms of food choices that is just so much crap – I shudder to think of the damage we have all done. Wishing you well, and praying for quick recovery and healing. Taker Care Nina!


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