Ninasusan

Happiness gently landed on my shoulders

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  • Our Spirit Group facilitator, Mary, helped me through an emotionally challenging, teary discussion by having me switch to referring to myself in the 3rd person rather than as I. Using this process (while cumbersome at first) really works in taking the sting out of words. Later on, during a counseling session, a therapist used the Read more

  • Annual Renewal

    The loveseat enveloped my body last night when our day of Christmas celebration was over. There was the buoy effect as I tried to sink in but I was just too inflated to actually feel comfortable. “Why” I screamed in my brain as the melancholy set in. Now begins the day after Christmas. Unlike several Read more

  • This morning

    Preparing for Christmas Eve brunch. Throwing the ingredients for monkey bread into the greased angel food cake pan, I reflected on how many times I have cringed while greasing the cake pan all the while wondering why you aren’t suppose to grease an angel food cake pan. Wondered if my mother somehow knew I greased Read more

  • Imagine our surprise!

    At first glance, it appeared Katy and Adam went all out on wedding reception decorations.  On closer inspection, we found that the money spent was actually courtesy of: He rented the Court Avenue Bridge for a rally.   (Our niece, Ashley’s husband). Reception guests were greeted with upbeat music and mostly positive energy from the Read more

  • I cannot exactly say why…but seeing Thomas the Train in person was very exciting.  I suppose it is a movie star sort of thing…or perhaps just enjoying the simple things in life… Baldwin City, KS has this carnival like event organized so it is very painless for visitors.  We met Brenda and John, Jenny, Justin and Read more

  • Angie – “my” nurse from Dr B’s office was my first conversation this morning – she called to tell me my blood tests from Friday all look excellent.  I’m actually feeling a little depressed and nauseated tonight and I know it is all mental.  I feel like I’m coming to the end of this diverticulitis Read more

  • for entertainment.  I believe that several minute to minute happenings in my 3 days of Christmas could more than likely keep a movie audience enthralled for a year…Just the scenarios…not necessarily the events themselves.  I’m sure it is true in every family gathering…some stories or things that happen become the lore of many Christmas to Read more

  • Hard decisions…

    Julie’s visitation was last night (Friday night) and our nephew’s wedding rehearsal and dinner was at the same time.  Same situation with today’s funeral and wedding.  I was feeling a lot of emotional angst as to what I should do last night.  My friend, Deb Williams, gave me what I believe was the best advice…she Read more

  • I grew up in Des Moines – a medium size large city with a population of about 200,000.  In my teens, I was “adopted” by a family in Colfax – population 2000 give or take a few.   I had my circle of friends – few relatives – when I lived in Des Moines.  Be accepted Read more

  • As I told Katy in an email earlier, “he” has pried me down off the top of the courthouse before I jumped or started shooting.  Emails from my daughters this afternoon had me go back and read my entry from last night and some stuff I sent to them by email and I can tell Read more