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I’m a long time student of “TRYING” to give up enough fear per day to allow me to release opinions, judgement and those things I have no control over. A few years ago I embraced the fact that I really have no “control” over anything. Thinking we have the ability to control everything is an Read more
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Of our disfunction We fear so we think if we can control everything around us or within us then we will be safe. Control is an illusion. Learning to let go of my illusion of control, has been a many decade endeavor. I, seriously, believed that once I understood that there is really nothing I Read more
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Back when I was all up into organized religion, I was ever reminded that whenever doubt crept in about what I was suppose to believe, that meant I didn’t believe enough. I totally bought it. I bought it because I already had a perfect score in domestication. My parents probably did the best they could Read more
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A couple weeks ago, a friend of mine announced that he was taking off for Florida for a few weeks. I had 3 thoughts. He is an integral part of a spirit book class I attend on Thursdays and I thought…bummer. Wow that sounds really fun….this will be the second winter that thoughts of escaping Read more
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Sometimes I feel like I’m on a horse with no reins. Mentally that is…it really isn’t possible for me to board a horse, get on a horse, mount a horse? The last time I threw my leg over a horse on a carousel at the carousel museum in Leavenworth, KS, I had that moment of Read more
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Or what ever deity you think you are representing, this is a short, yet direct rant to those who take cover under the umbrella of Christian for your bigoted, nasty, painful, critical, hateful beliefs. For the most part, I question you even attend an organization of formal “religion”, have any idea whatsoever the teachings of Read more
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Free will to make decisions, yes…actually being in control….no, not really. I am a recovering control freak! I’ve spent many years making firm decisions, manipulating situations and other people so that things could or would be done “correctly”. There are few people that I willingly allowed dominance over me and usually this was accomplished by Read more
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But actually it was a fail! While this kind of dream may seem quite negative….I woke up feeling stronger than I have in a few months…. Memories of the dream are sketchier as the morning awake progresses but hang with me here a bit… I had a huge argument – yelling argument – with Sheriff Read more
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their home was to be placed squarely on the coffee table with the remote placed vertically straight on top – centered. If I noticed anything eschew, I would lean over and straighten them so they were perfect. Back in the day when Jenny was a toddler, before I would go to bed at night, I would count Read more
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