I don’t know what to title this to get your attention….

Again for those following my journey with anti depressant withdrawal.  I have read and read and read everything I could get my hands on.  I have received so much encouragement from my daughters in their efforts to eat clean and live chemically free lives.  I’ve taken baby steps….stopping my sugar addiction, awareness of what I believe to be gluten intolerance in my own body.  Doctor visits who have told me I have an inflammation issue with my body….and experiencing how I felt before and how I feel now.  It’s ALL CONNECTED!  Then, just like so many times in my life something comes my way to bring it all together…I read or listen to something or someone that tells me what I need to know at the moment.

enter this interview I just found DR Kelly Brogan.  It’s all there in her interview.  I’m off to Amazon now to buy her book.  I hope you will listen to it.

until next time……

What’s going on now?

For those following my anti-depressant journey….tomorrow will be two full weeks since my last anti depressant pill.  I hope the way I feel now means clear sailing ahead.  Last week, I had occasional head movement.  I didn’t keep track because they were so rare!  I know that my brain is probably still adjusting but I’m pretty unaware.  Last week, I had a few episodes of ear ringing…more like tornado whooshing-through type ringing.  My newest inner body change is my temperature.  I have been hot for 20 years.  I know why in general but questioned the hot flashes were continuing and I was not getting any relief.  Well, now I’m cold.  ALL OF THE  TIME.  I’m not more cold when I’m outside….the problem is being cold when I’m inside.  I’ve taken to wearing my 3.99 Walmart fleece hoody 24/7.  I have added a quilt to my side of the bed and now sleep under a sheet and 3 quilts and often my hoody.  My latest Dr Nina diagnosis is the anti depressants had my inner thermostat out of whack and this is just an adjustment.  That and I’m drinking 3 quarts of water a day.  My anxiety has returned several times….the anxiety that comes from nothing I’m aware of.  I’m using breathing and inner refusal strength to keep it in check.  Seems to be working so far!  The other night I was berating myself during one of these anxiety “things” thinking what happens when I actually have something to be anxious about .  STOP….BREATH…right this moment I’ve got this. 

Until next time…..

Now he tells me!

The critters (cats) all have their favorite place to take naps.  This is helpful when an outside door has been open or a bedroom door has been recently closed.  We know pretty much where to look when counting cats.  Benny is usually not far from him….or in a box somewhere.


Baxter is behind the davenport or his favorite kitty tree spot by Minnie.  Truman is a sojourner…he lives his life where ever he finds himself.  Unless the furnace is on.  Then his spot is laying on the register beside the front door.


Today Jax and I were outside on the deck soaking up the sun…cleaning out flower pots and talking about flower colors he is going to put in his flower container in the spring.  We threw corn over the railings for the squirrels


Best to keep the squirrels on the ground rather than on the deck to prevent them from eating the deck railing for dessert.  Ya….keeping thinking that will prevent it.  

​Franny ……….was planted in one spot
Being generous to glance at me when I was close or said her name…finally I heard what she heard.  Squirrels voices giving her grief.  When I mentioned this to Him, he said, ya…..there is a squirrel nest up under the decking.  

Hidden!  I want to see them!!!

Until next time…..

Activating the family

My niece posted on Facebook today about an incident with school buses and a Four way stop.  She was under the impression that a four way stop meant…one car stops and goes and then the next car stops and goes, etc.  This morning she was stopped at a four way stop.  Waited for a school bus to go, then took her turn.  The school bus sitting behind the first school bus pulled into the intersection also and intentionally tried to hit her …. she slammed on her brakes and the school,bus driver FLIPPED HER THE BIRD.  You just can’t make this stuff up.  She posted to see if she was wrong….was their some rule about school buses having the right of way.  My anger level went from 0 to 60 in a matter of a second.  Being an aggressive school bus driver has its own obvious flaws but a bus driver with a bus full of kids flipping someone off….COME ON 😑. She’s obviously not going to let this go without a call to the school.  I took a more aggressive suggestion.  I’ll activate the family….the uncles and aunts!

While I’ve been sitting here (my anger level has cooled to about 28), I was thinking about the aunts and uncles in the family.  Blood or by marriage we are all in our 60s, all of us liberals (except 1) πŸ˜€and all of us with a strong sense of protecting our young!  Frequently we bicker about each other, the men seem to have no problem expressing their absolute opinions to each other and the in laws seem to just ride the air current.  It needs to be mentioned the sister and the mother of this particular niece is verbally scrappy like her brothers.

I’ve been in this family officially for 38 years and realized a long time ago that this is the MO of the family …..and like the other in laws, I must just find my place and let my hair blow in the wind on this ride.  We are fam-il-y 🎢🎢 and  will  activate if any one of us needs help.   Someone has my back…from an only child perspective, that is comforting!

Until next time….