I made it to the roof of the house yesterday….after hanging onto the eaves trough 

ˈēvzˌtrôf/

nounCANADIAN

a gutter fixed beneath the edge of a roof.-

For several days. 

 I think that the day I retired…February 13, 2013…I was under the illusion that from here on out, everything was going to be perfect in my life.  What I have actually learned is that life continues with all of the ups and downs but the lesson learned is how you deal with the the downs and how you dance with the joys.  Back in 2009-2010 was probably the most stressful and emotional couple of years to date.  I took care of my elderly, demanding mom and aunt…mom died, Aunt France’s died, one of my best friends, Brett died, we remodeled and moved into a new house, my oldest daughter moved to Kansas City…my youngest daughter lived in Ohio and I accepted the supervisor job at work while trying to juggle working full time on the 911 console.  When I look back on it now, I’m really not sure how I thrived.  Yet, I also know it is because of my intestinal fortitude and my inner voice saying ….. you can do this.  If it doesn’t kill you, it makes you stronger.

When I was diagnosed with kidney cancer earlier this year, I really only had one evening of horrible fear and tears.  From experience, I knew I would win.  It’s been almost 3 weeks since his heart attack….I’ve got to be honest here And say I had more moments of pure panic than when I was sick…but in the back of my mind, I knew we would win. 

I believe that when confronted with road blocks, I must just experience it…work through all of the negative emotions and hang on to the eaves trough because strength will come…one hand at a time until you can sing from the roof again.

Until next time….