than for anyone else. Its to document my day as most of my blog posts are meant to…I already love looking back and reminscing the days I’ve kept track of in my Ninasusan blog for the past 7 1/2 years. I told Kim today that I’m kind of in that desperation mode to get things done this week before my surgery. I have already figured out this is a control thing because I’m feeling lack of control of my body. These urgent things I need to accomplish are things that weren’t that important last week!
Having Jax here on this earth pounding rainy day has been a great distraction.
Jax was “helping” Papa matte a picture for me
It’s really sad but I don’t remember this intense learning phase with my girls. I think sometimes parents are just too busy working and trying to “raise” their kids to actually have the privilege of sitting back and watching them learn…which makes me so thankful for grandparent-hood!
He cleaned up with a little sweeper that just happened to be mine 57 years ago
then he and Papa went upstairs to hang their finished product
Weather channel says the rain will be over around 1900 hours so we will have time for a good walk before I marathon watch the rest of the season of Call the Midwife.
Until next time…..
Ninasusan 
The hardest things for me when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, besides losing my sense of denial, was to also lose control of my life. Losing control of my body was a huge deal so I tried to compensate by doing other things: controlling who knew about my illness, deciding who I wanted to be part of my cancer mess, making decisions with my doctors (really agreeing with them), etc.
You cope as best as you can. You are doing everything you can and you are not doing it alone. I am sure your medical team is great and very supportive. So is your family.
I will be thinking of you. Please let us know how the surgery goes, when you can.
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I will…thank you! It helps more than ever knowing there are others going thru this mess with you!
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7.5 years of blogging is very impressive well done. You mention a surgery in this post – I am hoping it is not for a serious issue? wishing you healthy days and a fast recovery from your operation.
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Thanks! I was diagnosed with kidney cancer in March. Kind of a surprise diagnosis..found it during a CT scan where they found diverticulitis abscess. Surgery is Tuesday!
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ouch! I remembered now – my apologies :(( If I remember correctly it was early stage? I will be thinking about you and sending the warmest, most positive wishes! keep us posted.
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