It seems this year went sooo fast. As years go, it was not a particularly good year…but it could have been much worse, I guess. What I mainly remember of the first few months was the ups and downs with mom and Aunt Frances..almost constant chaos and indecision..I felt like I was on the end of a yoyo…then the trips to Mayo Clinic with him. His health had all of us nervous but I never lost hope in Mayo Clinic’s reputation. Several trips and thousands of dollars of tests and I think I know we are headed for blue skys…aka January of 2010…he scheduled for an adrenalectomy which will help a multitude of issues.
We only got one fishing trip in this summer just because all of the above – the vacation we had planned for August fell thru because mom died – and we began that arduous task of cleaning out her house. Also in August, Ryan and Jenny announced their plans to move to Kansas City…seems that all of the high stressors one can have in their life were on the front burner of our lives. A couple of months later, Aunt Frances finally gives it up..probably because she couldn’t live without her only sister of 91 years…lots of turmoil with her passing as I found out she was very, very angry with me and blamed me for sending mom to hospice. She was in the hospital for 2 weeks before she would let the doctor call and let me know. I felt at peace with her death as I did moms because I felt death bed connections…I am quite surprised that I have enduring feelings of sadness…I actually thought I would feel so much relief that I would be able to move on quickly…but that hasn’t been the case..perhaps I’m validating the years of knowing down deep inside that I was a normal person and they were not!
The last months of the year have been bittersweet…we haven’t had much downtime. We are remodling mom’s house so we can move into it. It is a lot of physical work for him and lots of mental work for me. I’ve been able to start an ebay business and have a booth at Pappy’s Antique Mall…this is the bright spot of the year for me. I have a lot of fun and make a little money…I really planned to use it to help buy some new furniture for the house…but I have also gotten a little more ebay savvy and having fun adding to my dishes collections…These are my collections, but I think he enjoys the beauty of these old dishes..he loves antiquing just as much as I do.
Thru the funerals and holidays, we got to see the kids a lot. In fact, Kate and Luke just left here to start their 2010 adventures. Luke will be flying back to Ohio today and Kate begins her adventure student teaching at the Kansas School for the deaf in Olathe, KS. She and Jenny will be able to spend lots of weekends together for the next 4 months and we will get to see them more often with both in the same place and only 3 1/2 hours from home.
The best part of 2009 were friends and family. We have never felt alone thru our trials and tribulations ..friends/family have always been there for us…they have sweated with us, worked with us, cried with us and laughed with us. My cup runneth over!
One last negative thought …I really need to bitch about the December weather..it has sucked…
Welcome 2010 … I pray for peace and love and good ole rock and roll…
Until next year….