Feeling better this morning – amazing what a good night’s sleep will do for you. I was feeling a lot of despair last night…I used to deal with “the mother” by just stuffing and taking it out on my family…then I realized how horrible that was…and have since apologized to Jenny for being stupid about mothering and anything else that I have done. I have two lovely daughters, who I’m pretty confident know that I’ve taken the exact different road to child rearing than was used on me. I’m not just holding it in anymore.
I think this is why my animals are so important to me. Unconditional love. Haven’t really had it before…. I decided the other day that I was not going to take anymore pictures of them and post them for awhile..people are going to start thinking I’m a lunatic. The Daily Ground Hog already does 🙂 But you should have seen them this morning. Benny was laying on the desk bed beside me – I got up to see why everyone was so quiet and all three puppies and Billie were laying together in the sun…if that isn’t the cutest thing…and I must update the cat story…Last night as I was sitting here airing all of my dirty laundry and thoughts on Xanga…Billie and Bennie were up here on the desk and Billie was bathing Bennie…I called Alayna and she said it was a good sign…everything is going to be okay…probably better after Bennie goes under the knife on Tuesday. I’m off to work for 5 hours. This will be my 8th day this week… work week, that is…or just 8th day in a row…you catch my drift 🙂