Burning the words of emotion

A few months ago, I participated in an applied kinesiology session with a massage therapist.  It was a technique to dig deep in your soul writing down specific words in color degrees as you talk about a troublesome issue…followed by an alternative muscle massage therapy to determine where you are physically hiding these emotions.  The dam broke for me approximately 5 minutes in because my emotions about my childhood are always right under my skin.  I did a follow up session one month later and was given the large poster board size sheet of paper marked in Magic marker of my words and was told to hold on to it and then one day burn this page.  I was ready last night.

I spent most of the evening on the deck with my headphones watching a movie on my iPad….alternating sips of coffee and water.  I found myself distracted several times by my flowers and the serenity of the pond.  I put a quilt over my legs and felt the cool evening breeze in my hair…I felt I was totally at peace with myself.  I shut down any intruding thoughts and focused on my blessings.

Then I grabbed the “words” off the ironing board where they had been laying for months, grabbed the fire stick and in the dark over an old tree stump, I burned the words in preparation for Mothers Day.  I didn’t do it for her….I did it for me!

Until next time….. 

Sunshine for the soul

It’s amazing what a little sunshine can do for my “little attitude”.  I have been a bit angry this week…it may have to do with the narcotics….or it may be because my world was turned on its side with 3 months of medical mayhem!  I was really surprised pre-surgery that I was overwhelmed with sad/scared emotions only twice.  I focused on the beauty of spring, the breeze in my hair, I ate clean and lived one day at a time.  I had been giving a lot of lip service to getting my psych turned around and my body healthy.   HMMMMM!

I did a lot of walking today .. Got in over 8,000 steps.  Sat on the deck with the sun at my back and listened to a couple of TED podcasts, caught up on reading and hung out with my critters.  He’s been going to Jenny’s to watch Jax because he has been sick and we didn’t want to introduce it to our house or take a chance with my immune system.  I miss my boy…

In the evenings he and I have been binge watching a couple of NETFLIX shows…Bloodline and Boss.  I’d be interested to get some opinions if anyone else has watched them.

That’s it for tonight…..I guess it is theoretically morning…so

Until next time….