life
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I was left alone overnight and today. He left me the truck and said “you’ll be fine, it’s kinda fun to drive” which sounded rather manipulative but he was loving and probably didn’t realize he was talking to the intelligent part of my brain. This morning started out fine. I took a walk on this… Read more
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The word carries energy and sets up an expectation in the subconscious. When I see a task as daunting, I’m already placing a label on it…I’ve given the narrative a title. I believe this could be said of all words assigned to a thought or a task…no matter how small or large the “unknown” is… Read more
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Every now and then I get a glimmer of how this whole life thing works when fear is released and I am able to experience the one precious moment…….right here and right now. I have a history of making myself miserable in thinking and in action taking care of everyone. I have caused myself a… Read more
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A Facebook post by my friend, Tami, woke me up this morning. She is “healing” from back to back years of family deaths including her husband who was her soul mate, her love and Half of Her. Over the last few years she has included her authentic healing thoughts and fears and anger through her… Read more
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I fully recognize that I am not in a gentle place right now. I’m not doing my morning centering, meditations and I miss that contented 2020 peacefulness. That’s not to say I didn’t have a thin thread of fear running through my head about COVID but I settled in to experience those early months of… Read more
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Why do I think everyone else’s life is better than my own? I know that these thoughts usually only settle in when I am feeling irritable without a cause or irritable with a cause. So…irritable. Or when I’m feeling sorry for myself…without a cause or with a cause. Or when I have committed or not… Read more
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There is often a huge crevice between expectations associated with our choices and Reality… Capital R – Reality. Simply put, I’m in the drive thru of my favorite coffee shop, waiting for my turn to order, I make a snap decision and choose to get a large calorie laden coffee with caffeine, sugar and real… Read more
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A page from The Book of Awakening -Mark Nepo “February 21. If I had experienced different things, I would have different things to say. So often, I have felt troubled and guilty bearing witness to my pain, and yet, not to make things worse. Somehow, in saying just what Mother had done in her cruel… Read more
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I call it working knowledge…all of the encounters, judgements, observations and a lifetime of the resulting lessons that I draw from over this lifetime aid me in traversing through this human experience as I navigate the cube I live in. I choose the word CUBE here…like ice cube. Throw an ice cube in a glass… Read more
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does not mean it is mine to do. From an early age (childhood) I learned that I had responsibilities. Not for just cleaning out the dishwasher but to rinse the dirty dishes, load the dishwasher “correctly”, run the dishwasher, empty it and begin again. This duty was not totally my responsibility but a metaphor for… Read more
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