This is just a guess, but I doubt there is anyone sitting on their deck with temps in the 70s wearing socks, sweatpants and a hoodie

I have more movement in my head than the wake from the geese swimming across the pond with frequent episodes of rice crispy snap, crackle and pop!  After 15 years and more to the point the last month, trying to adjust anti depressant prescriptions and dosages, I committed on my drive home from Des Moines last weekend to detox and get off the f-ing things and that was the exact words I used!

Nothing in my life is the same as it was when my dad died in 2001 and I started down a painful, weeping path. over those 15 years I have been on 7 different antidepressants…every time I wanted to go off of them I had a white coat discourage me from accomplishing this because of what they call suicidal ideation and my inability to quit crying.  What I know now after hours of reading is that these are normal detox symptoms and not one doctor gave me encouragement or a path to accomplish this goal.  Up the dose or change the poison.  Until I explained my plan to Dr DAvis at the little Pleasant Hill Medical Clinic.

To complicate this difficult detox process, I also have diverticulitis.  I knew what to do and put myself on a liquid only diet for nearly two days, swallowed essential oils, drank aloe Vera juice and continued the process.  It’s a lesson I needed at the right time.  I’m a tough old girl!

I prepared Him for what I thought would be hell this month….inability to think, head zings and irritability.  I am only a week in but feel like I’m going to be okay….maybe this isn’t the worst to come….it’s not pleasant…but it’s not the worst thing I’ve had to deal with.  I have committed 3 months to detox and figure out who I am with a clear mind.

Until next time…..