I frequently find myself mental flapping with regret about things I should have done or things I should have said. You know…..the past. Just as I think I’ve about to let go of the past, something pops into my head and I have to ruminate about it for awhile….that only causes dredging up the things from the past that I wish I would have done differently. some of those things are a consequence of my upbringing ….as in I HAD NO IDEA THAT I WAS FREE TO MAKE THAT DECISION BASED ON MY OWN NEEDS. I was raised to be a people pleaser and peace maker from a young age so I carried that into young and old adulthood believing that I had to make decisions to make others happy and knowing that I could just make it work.
Enter my new mantra….I made decisions in my past based on my knowledge and circumstances at the time.
I can spend a lot of time thinking about and wishing I had done things differently…but it is the past. I made decisions based on my knowledge and circumstances at the time. Just as I’m free to do today and tomorrow.
Until next time…..