I couldn’t sleep for some reason so I was up around 0500…I wandered, checked the computer, check DVR recordings and came across the Sex and the City movie… but it didn’t seem right to watch it…was almost like breaking the rules…..WHAT RULES….I live my life by my conscience, for the most part.  When I go against my conscience, I feel like I must need to apologize to someone or I feel bad because I did something wrong….and taking it one step further – I’ve always thought that God gave us a conscience to direct us doing right and wrong…

I watched Sex and the City movie…it’s 0930 in the morning and I just watched a movie.  Who cares…where does this sense of right and wrong come from?  I know I always try to do the right thing…and I guess the right thing is that which has been put into my head by my upbringing, by my parents…by the adults in my life, perhaps. I don’t want to scream at the top of my lungs during prayer at church, I don’t want to run naked down main street at high noon…but maybe I need to stop taking myself so seriously…stop trying to be “perfect” – perfection is in the eye of the beholder?  Maybe I need to step out and take a chance…ask myself why….just why.  Is there a reason for my decision or is it because it was my parent’s decision…hmmmmmm

Until next time….