As I told Katy in an email earlier, “he” has pried me down off the top of the courthouse before I jumped or started shooting.  Emails from my daughters this afternoon had me go back and read my entry from last night and some stuff I sent to them by email and I can tell you I’m feeling stronger than I did then.  I got 100% support from my girls and they see the outcome the same way I do…I just think the problem is getting from point A to point B…as the daughter and mother, I realize I have to do the dirty work…I told “him” tonight that I have the total support of the 3 most important people in my life so what is my problem….I guess I’m scared of her…scared for all of the reasons that I have let her emotionally abuse me all of these years.  Not scared physically of her anymore because I outweigh her significantly.  She’s lost about 70 pounds in the last few years.  In fact she hasn’t hit me or even raised a hand to me since I was 12 years old…I won’t go into that ugly story but I’m pretty sure she realized I wasn’t going to allow her to be physical with me….

One day at a time….