First, I must let coffeeiv and lovetocraft….. know how much their feedback has helped. Role reversal is obviously what must happens now…. or is happening now. The best thing I can do is learn my lessons from this so I don’t put my daughters thru it…or at least so I am aware I am putting them thru it so they don’t feel so bad telling me like it is. I just have to keep remembering how narcissistic mom has been all of these years and I’m actually dealing with a different woman now that she has decreased mental and physical function.
For the last few years, I’ve been trying to figure out what happened to mom and Aunt Frances when they were growing up. Mom is totallynarcisstic but there is something wrong with Aunt Frances too. Mom had a very, very physically abusive first marriage that ended back in the early 1950’s. It probably had some affect on her life but she has had a long life since then. Theygrew up in a fanaticalchristian home with their father – their mother died when they were 13. Apparently from the stories, they cooked and entertained ministers on Sundays and spent most of their childhoods in the church. Since I’ve been really aware that they were “wierd”, Ive tried to get from either one of them any other signs of abuse, etc. nothing. My husband says they were born about 100 years to late and about 1000 miles too far north..they are the typical daughters who should be sitting on the plantation veranda sipping mint julep. They both are pretty sure they “deserve” better than others…especially mom. Aunt Frances tries very hard to be the God fearing Christian.
Anyway. I’m going to try to get off this subject for awhile and be thankful for all of the wonderful things in my life. I strive to be positive and loving and appreciative and forgiving and follow the rules…of society and of Christ’s teachings. Not always successful but darn it, I try 🙂
Until next time…..
Ninasusan 
And you are a 911 operator, too? Geez, woman! You should be crowned for not going postal.RE Nanowrimo: I’ve written all my life for fun. When I taught school in the 80s,I wrote children’s plays/musicals. A couple of years ago, I wrote a screenplay but was told it was too “corny.” Last year,I did Nanowrimo and finished a novel, but it was badly written and I’m still working on it, probably will be for years. This year,it’s a mystery for 3rd through 5th grade girls. Don’t know if I’ll commit to Nano or not- that means at least 1 hour a day of writing and with the house trashed I might need to go to the gym instead. I’m pretty cynical about ever getting published. It would be a dream, but I’m not willing to write just anything for the sake of getting published. And if I had Pulitzer Prize material, I think I would have already found that out. My stuff is fluffy and fun, not literature.But Nano’s fun and you don’t really have to actually finish. I would encourage you to do it if you have an hour a day. Hah.Prayers continue for your mom and aunt. Speaking of which, I need to call MY mom.
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Thank you for the very nice comment. Sounds like you have an interesting life! I don’t envy you being a 911 operator. I worked for Alarm companies for quite a few years. It’s amazing the stress that it can put on you.
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