I posted my yearly anniversary notice on FB yesterday…going through the pics, I tried to select snapshots from several different decades, adventures and weights. A couple of tears rolled down my cheeks as I remembered how adventurous and fun our life together has been so far. Obviously I didn’t post the bad time photos or the rage photos because they don’t exist. During those experiences, I don’t even consider picking up the camera/now phone so I can remember what it looked like. Why rehash the emotions of the negativity in our history. There is solace in the awareness that releasing the emotion in those unkind, human moments does not allow them to manifest fear, anger and sometimes hate which can tarnish the memory cache. Everyone else has moved on while I’m still wallowing!

The Facebook notifications from friends overwhelmed me. I’m so aware of the bad rap social media gets these days….but damn, there’s an uplifting to hearing from folks with good wishes and loving emojis. The process gave me an opportunity to mentally and emotionally connect in the moment with friends I see often and friends who live elsewhere. AND just for the record, HE and I spent less time with each other on our anniversary that the old married couple does normally. That was fine too….perhaps the contentment of the years together allowed the personal freedom of a day spent comfortably doing our own thing.

Until next time 😘