First, I must let coffeeiv and lovetocraft….. know how much their feedback has helped.  Role reversal is obviously what must happens now…. or is happening now.  The best thing I can do is learn my lessons from this so I don’t put my daughters thru it…or at least so I am aware I am putting them thru it so they don’t feel so bad telling me like it is.  I just have to keep remembering how narcissistic mom has been all of these years and I’m actually dealing with a different woman now that she has decreased mental and physical function.

For the last few years, I’ve been trying to figure out what happened to mom and Aunt Frances when they were growing up.  Mom is totallynarcisstic but there is something wrong with Aunt Frances too.  Mom had a very, very physically abusive first marriage that ended back in the early 1950’s.  It probably had some affect on her life but she has had a long life since then. Theygrew up in a fanaticalchristian home with their father – their mother died when they were 13.  Apparently from the stories, they cooked and entertained ministers on Sundays and spent most of their childhoods in the church.  Since I’ve been really aware that they were “wierd”, Ive tried to get from either one of them any other signs of abuse, etc.  nothing.  My husband says they were born about 100 years to late and about 1000 miles too far north..they are the typical daughters who should be sitting on the plantation veranda sipping mint julep.  They both are pretty sure they “deserve” better than others…especially mom.  Aunt Frances tries very hard to be the God fearing Christian.

Anyway.  I’m going to try to get off this subject for awhile and be thankful for all of the wonderful things in my life.  I strive to be positive and loving and appreciative and forgiving and follow the rules…of society and of Christ’s teachings.  Not always successful but darn it, I try 🙂

Until next time…..