Ninasusan

Happiness gently landed on my shoulders

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  • There does not need to be a plan for everything

    I have accepted the fact that I have a split personality…which means I plan for every eventuality while moving through life hopping on the “unplanned” train rails. We recently made a lifestyle change to lease an apartment in another state for a year…it was totally the right choice to make. I recognize that at our Read more

  • On this Day after another birthday,

    I’m struggling with just doing what I want to do today. I don’t even really know what I want to do today. I have finally arrived at a place in my life that I don’t have anything I am required to do. I am no longer responsible for keeping my daughters alive on a daily Read more

  • Not sure where this blog will go

    Feel like I’m all over the place today. Started off with a Heart 2 Heart relationships class at 10. The instructor is a highly credentialed leader in the psychological as well as spirit driven genres. Seems as though the small group sessions will get us through the end of March working on our relationships…current, future Read more

  • Pandemic make me lazy? Or did I just find contentment?

    Doing my Morning Pages this morning… What I scribbled out was “has the pandemic made me lazy or has it been a gift of contentment and getting to know who I am?” While I’ve had those days of total boredom … screaming in my head that I want to take a trip somewhere…Key West, Italy, Read more

  • Code name: Pink Flamingo

    In the back of my mind, I’ve always known that if I ever became first lady or CIA, my code name would be: Pink Flamingo! I have flamingo chimes thanks to my friend, Sue. I also have 3 metal pink flamingos in flower beds in the yard right now, as well as totes of the Read more

  • It wasn’t wrong it just was

    Yesterday I did this! I went for a walk around the pond and just kept following my feet down the path for about 1/2 a mile. It was warm when the sun would peek through, a fall breeze blowing fall leaves…I embraced the smells, the beauty, and wind blowing through my hair. The best part Read more

  • The Leaf

    Hanging at eye level out my kitchen window is this shriveled leaf still attached to its branch. It has survived several windy autumn days, thunderstorms, gentle rain, sleet and a significant snow storm and still remains today while, again, snow flakes fall all around. Occasionally it will flutter with a breeze but continues to hang Read more

  • These Dreams

    These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life First two lines of the chorus of These Dreams sung by Heart (just in case you aren’t familiar). I felt aggressive, angry and hateful when I woke this morning and it didn’t take me long to realize Read more

  • I will try

    I woke up peacefully this morning.  I slept with the drapes over the open deck door wide open last night and the view overwhelmed me with contentment……I allowed myself the luxury of laying in bed drifting in and out of light dozing and soaking in the love and friendship of the girls weekend in Des Read more

  • That’s one way to get rid of me…

    But actually it was a fail!  While this kind of dream may seem quite negative….I woke up feeling stronger than I have in a few months…. Memories of the dream are sketchier as the morning awake progresses but hang with me here a bit… I had a huge argument – yelling argument – with Sheriff Read more