Ninasusan

Happiness gently landed on my shoulders

gratitude

  • Included with the Upgrade…..

    I’m learning to block the INCOMING shots fired from the field by surrounding my heart with invisible window screening and turning down the interior spotlights so the target is not as easily visible from the outside. That’s how I’m learning to say the word NO, and selectively choosing my path in the cacophony of people-pleasing Read more

  • On this Day after another birthday,

    I’m struggling with just doing what I want to do today. I don’t even really know what I want to do today. I have finally arrived at a place in my life that I don’t have anything I am required to do. I am no longer responsible for keeping my daughters alive on a daily Read more

  • Can anyone name the song playing in my head?

    This morning, I told the little white haired lady at the checkout counter that I was always happy to see her face when I pulled into her lane. Her eyes lit up with just enough of a smile on her lips that I knew her heart opened up. After I payed, I looked the obviously stoned sacker Read more

  • Like a nice breeze on a spring day..

    What I know is that I THINK TOO MUCH! Read more

  • Muting the trigger

    A Facebook post by my friend, Tami, woke me up this morning. She is “healing” from back to back years of family deaths including her husband who was her soul mate, her love and Half of Her. Over the last few years she has included her authentic healing thoughts and fears and anger through her Read more

  • The illusion of daily drivel

    I fully recognize that I am not in a gentle place right now. I’m not doing my morning centering, meditations and I miss that contented 2020 peacefulness. That’s not to say I didn’t have a thin thread of fear running through my head about COVID but I settled in to experience those early months of Read more

  • Changing life one coffee shop at a time

    There is often a huge crevice between expectations associated with our choices and Reality… Capital R – Reality. Simply put, I’m in the drive thru of my favorite coffee shop, waiting for my turn to order, I make a snap decision and choose to get a large calorie laden coffee with caffeine, sugar and real Read more

  • Where do I go from here….

    I call it working knowledge…all of the encounters, judgements, observations and a lifetime of the resulting lessons that I draw from over this lifetime aid me in traversing through this human experience as I navigate the cube I live in. I choose the word CUBE here…like ice cube. Throw an ice cube in a glass Read more

  • Recognizing the evolution of friendships

    A girlfriend from my early 20’s posted this on Facebook this morning. As I was responding to her, I was thinking about friendships. Today is the birthday of a friend who no longer circulates with me in the physical world because he passed on 11 years ago. He’s the kind of friend that still visits Read more

  • One of those freakish accidents

    Responding to my comment “after 42 years of marriage, maybe he was trying to kill me”, the doctor shuddered with that little nervous giggle and said..ya, that’s the way I would do it…through the ear. hahahah He was hanging pictures on the wall yesterday afternoon and was using a razor blade knife with a brand Read more