Blogging away the angst

When I initially started Sharing my irritations, hates, repressed anger, loves and thankfulness on this ninasusan.com blog in 2007, it’s purpose was to make connections with other people. It quickly morphed into a safe place to use as my own personal therapy session. I shared my very painful beliefs and words on a public blogging site because I found that I was receiving feedback from perfect strangers who also found themselves in their own personal hell and we related! I also connected with 6 or 7 perfect humans who now ride in the backseat of my car daily…we share, we commiserate, we love and we hold each other up. I have met face to face with a couple of them….the rest of us feel like we’ve also met in person because we just KNOW each other with our souls!

I remember when I started out, I received some flash back from remain nameless because they couldn’t figure out why I didn’t keep my personal business….personal… I heard them…I understood the question…but, quite unlike my usual MO, I continued writing and sharing because I felt I had to get my hate and disconnect from familial mental abuse out or it would kill me. I needed to have a way to communicate everything I was holding inside and I was too afraid to clip the wires on my jaw and actually say out loud what I thought, what I meant…I did not have the guts to back off from those people who had grown accustomed to my people pleasing.

Someone mentioned to me the other day how much they appreciated how authentic my blogs are. The words from her blessed my heart. We all suffer, we all experience mental or physical ailments, we all have grief, we all have irritations and hateful moments. But we all just want to be heard and we all want to be loved. We are what we think. We are the unkind thoughts we think about others. Just Be Kind! Pass it on. Pay it forward!

Namaste

7 thoughts on “Blogging away the angst

  1. Perfection is fake. When people are too-perfect seeming, trust is impossible. Keep sharing. It only benefits people.

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  2. You’ve been such a big part of my life Nina. From the first moment I met you I was 100% comfortable with you. Somewhere inside we fundamentally share things.

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  3. All well said, Nina. I didn’t know you had this blog until I saw it on Facebook. I look forward to going back into the archives a bit. Abuse loves the shadows. Thank you for your courage to shine light. And as the great American songwriter, Taylor Swift, once wrote: “Haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate.” Then she suggests we don’t give them the satisfaction of retaliation. Just “shake it off!”

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  4. ❤ Had you not always been so open, I would've lost interest a long time ago. Who needs more "just show the world your perfection" crap. We all have enough of that up to our eyeballs. Small talk. "How are you?" She answers as she's falling apart, "Good how're you?" Yeah we have way enough of that. Thanks for sharing, always! ❤

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