I’ve spent the last 48+ hours ingesting everything negative and evil in the world. I’ve become VENGEFUL. I was hoping this morning that I would open up the IPAD and find that France had blown to smithereens more ISIS locations in northern Syria. I was hoping that the French and Belgium police had taken out a neighborhood of ISIS radicals in their own countries. My heart is seeking revenge. I’m way too caught up in it. I’m backing away for my own health. I know what anxiety, anger and frustration do to the soul and the body. I pushed a cat off of the davenport this morning in my frustration. I feel like I am an addict. I’m angry that the jihadist are still breathing the same earth air that I’m breathing. I want them stopped and I want them stopped right now. I find myself wanting to drop a bomb on the Syria – wipe it out. I’ve become them.
So I’m backing away.
I’m going to attempt meditation to find a normal, peaceful place. I have to shut it down. I don’t like the way it makes me feel.
I’ll let you know how this works.
Until next time…..